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Pumped Up Kicks

2011-09-07T11:12:00.000-07:00

Robert's got a quick hand

He'll look around the room

He won't tell you his plan

He's got a rolled cigarette hanging out his mouth

He's a cowboy kid

Yeah, he found a six-shooter gun

In his dad's closet hidden in a box of fun things

And I don't even know what

But he's coming for you, yeah, he's coming for you

All the other kids with the pumped up kicks

You'd better run, better run, outrun my gun

All the other kids with the pumped up kicks

You'd better run, better run, faster than my bullet

Daddy works a long day

He be coming home late, yeah, he's coming home late

And he's bringing me a surprise

Because dinner's in the kitchen and it's packed in ice

I've waited for a long time

Yeah, the slight of my hand is now a quick pull trigger

I reason with my cigaretteAnd say your hair's on fire

You must have lost your wits, yeah

All the other kids with the pumped up kicks

You'd better run, better run, outrun my gun

All the other kids with the pumped up kicks

You'd better run, better run, faster than my bullet

All the other kids with the pumped up kicks

You'd better run, better run, outrun my gun

All the other kids with the pumped up kicks

You'd better run, better run, faster than my bullet

I love the beat and the sound of this song, so like vintage or oldies. Plus the music video! Some scenes are lomo-ish which added character to the song. I just like the cliff diving and surfing, the live set and the humming part. And yes definitely, I love Foster the People (they're cute). When I first heard the song, which was in Mellow FM 94.7, I thought it was The Beatles.

It's really good to hear this genre (electro-pop), it serves just a right break from hearing Lady Gaga and loud songs of today.

In contrast to the lively and shoe-tapping beat is the dark lyrics of the song. There's this Robert kid who's thinking about going on a killing spree to those other kids with pumped up kicks. Kids with the pumped up kicks refers to those who are well-off and had that nicest and newest tings (specifically the kicks). His dad don't have time for him and he has ostracized himself from his friends. So you see he is like an outcast and loner here.

This often happens to some youths of today. Like, their outside is great and fine, while the inside is about to explode.

And I believe in few months time, I'm going to be like Robert. I'm going crazy. I just wish I won't resort to a killing spree. :)

Nostalgia

2011-01-11T21:50:00.000-08:00

How time flies! Who'd have thought it has been eight years? Eight years after graduating elementary. Calculating the time that have passed, we must be starting to fulfill our dreams right now. I mean, we are supposed to graduate by this year. But there are many stories to tell; all about obstructions that hindered our pathways. But whatever happened - even if we have manage to study or not, have marry early or start to have our own family, if we are on the right path or not - we cannot deny the fact that we were once children eight years ago. Naive. Full of hopes and dreams. Didn't even know the truth about life; that it is not always sweet.

I used to think that life is all about going to school to meet my playmates, playing with them until I got weary and dirty, and going home telling stories about how happy or pissing my day is. And that was life for a child who's starting to explore the world, who's just starting to learn many things, who's just starting to gain understanding about real living. We were once that child and forever we'll be.

One of the best things in life is reconnecting with childhood friends. Very nostalgic. You're feeling young again. Reminiscing funny moments together; the girl who peed in her skirt while practicing for field day, the boy who fell flat on his face while running, the noisy list to the nth power (X2, X10 or X100) which you are required to pay 1peso for each strike, the class clown who acted like an autistic child saying "Magsumbong ka sa baranggay!", the burog-talangka going home crying.

I just wanna thank my long lost childhood friends for making me feel young again. I can't wait to go back there again. I want to make up with the years that has slipped away.

After writing this, I'm going back to the real world. Until next time my friends, we'll play patintero and kapukan again until we just sat down because of weariness. There are times we got dage, all we need is to ask for a time pers. I know time will come that we will not be burog-talangka in this game of life, we will succeed. Until then, we won’t need to say goodbye.

THE RETURN

2010-09-28T10:34:00.001-07:00

I've been wanting to blog many things lately, but I just don't have the time. But well, I'm back for good now; after seven months of ~~wandering.~~

There were a lot of entries in my diary. Hopefully, I can put all those nagging thoughts in here in the coming days. And I will start w

ith this:

Things are getting more serious than I give them credit for. Time flies while I’m still trapped in the middle of ‘a nowhere’ in my life. I don’t have a flying Chucks to help me speed up. God. One or more weeks to go, I will be graduating college; then just a few more days, I will be taking the board exams. Is life really fast-phased or it is just me who can’t cope up? The future that I used to dream when I was a kid is coming soon. The drawings of my plans will be put to life. ~~Or will it just remain silently on the paper?~~

Future, as how I define it now, is the result of working for your dreams, aspirations and goals. Yung nakikita mong kahihinatnan mo. When asked if what do we see in our futures, we answer everything better of course. We want to be wealthy, live with a happy family, with business and everything we dreamt to be. And that very moment is fast approaching. Can we guarantee that we will really have a good future?

The future I’ve been dreaming before is now the future I'm dreading to happen. What if I don’t succeed? What if I don’t achieve the realization of my dreams?

Deadlines, problems to be solved, exams, removals, graduation, board exams, first job... ~~They’re flooding my mind.~~

I must first condition myself before I get insane!

...

2010-02-18T10:30:00.000-08:00

The return. Soon.

One more time.

2010-02-18T09:51:00.000-08:00

"A dream is what keeps a man's will burning. It is his innermost aspirations that make him look forward in waking up the next day."

-Anonymous

Hello! I really miss blogging! I hope I am able to continue this momentum or else...

For the past few months, I learned many things. I've experienced my fair share of and , mistakes and lessons. Things are happening dizzyingly fast. A day or two more, without noticing, we are a moment near the realization of our dreams.

Above is one of the quotes that really had an impact to me. I use to remember the time when me and my Inang (Lola) went to Talipapa (market). Amazing where I have first read that quote... in a tinapa wrapper, in an unexpected place and time. Indeed, dreams are what keeps a man's will burning, for it really motivates a person to do better, to strive harder. It gives someone a reason to wake up one more day, to still go on with life.

Keep your dream alive.

I love these animated gifs. They're so cute! Cheers to anikaos!

2009-06-24T09:50:00.000-07:00

Oh my. I' m back after jurassic years.

I've been very busy last vacation and what more this schooldays. I am a working student now.

Does that makes sense? Oh yeah for me it changed a lot of things.

Oooh. I wanna share a lot of things, but I need to sleep. :)

Buh-bye for now. Woah.

I'm for:

missing blogging so muuuuuucccchhh...

2009-04-10T23:47:00.000-07:00

guys, i'm so sorry.

I'm not able to tell everyone that I will be on a hiatus. :((

I miss you all.

I'm so busy, but if I had another time, I'll update.

Till here guys, love you all and Godbless.!!

Enjoy your summer. Mwah!

just g.

i can feel it...

2009-03-24T00:08:00.000-07:00

Yeah, really. IT's summer time!

I can feel the hot breeze over my face.

Whew!
However, I do not have plans yet. I'm still thinking of creative things to do.

First thing, I would love to swim in a beach. Exciting, huh. But, I do not want to get a free tan. I don't think I need that anymore. :)

Hmm. Share me what your plans are. You can comment me. :)

Thanks.

feels good to be here/random thoughts...

2009-03-21T10:40:00.000-07:00

Hey!

What's with the title? Hmm. I just feel good about this blogging thing. It's cool, you meet new and interesting people, make friends with them, share your stories and whatevers with them.I can express myself here, share what I'm feeling, then get advice and help from people I just knew. I also enjoy reading other posts and what's good is that I'm enjoying. :)

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Speaking of enjoyment, I also enjoy doing estimates for houses in our Construction Works subject. But, I think it's over that until now we're still doing that because supposedly it's summer vacation. Hmm. I wish I could finish it early so that I can relax. Hmm. ^^,

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While watching TV Patrol World last night, I was so - (feeling unexplainable) about the condom testing thing! I'm against it! For me, they don't need to do that. A certain company is searching for qualified applicants in those 500 people that piled for that thing. And there's a prize for the best condom tester, that is Php 50, 000. I think they don't need to publicize those things and show money prizes for people. Because they are not preventing and lessening the sex thing to happen, they are just urging and encouraging people to do that. Even they say it would be safe, statistics say that is not really safe. There were some unexpected cases that happen. I also think that is not a good and healthy for youths. As we know, youths were mapupusok, they would be encourage to do those thing instead of avoiding pre-marital sex, because they would think it's safe nga. My point is, kung gusto nga nilang magkaroon ng testing thingy, eh di do it privately and what's the use of the best tester? How was that? Catholic Church nga din against sa mga ganun diba? Hai. Ang world talaga ngayon, masyado nang exposed sa kung anu-ano. This is just my opinion, if you think it's being old-fashioned then that's ok. Let me here you, it's a moot point naman, open to discussion. :)

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I'm excited! Tomorrow, we are going to have a family date! Wooh. I'm just excited.

hugs and kisses..,

just g.

"Peter"

2009-03-19T11:05:00.000-07:00

As me and my friend were working on our Construction Works activity, one of our friends send this video. You know, I stopped working and look. After a few minutes I was crying. :(

C'mon watch this.

Even we denied Him numerous times, we commit mistakes and we turn away from Him, He was still there no matter what.

Hope you are blessed. :)

geleen speaks...

2009-03-18T08:48:00.000-07:00

Woah... I missed to blog. :( BTW, I'm back. :)

These past few days I was really busy. How I wish to get rid of this eyebags. Hmm.

Napakaproblemado kong tao. I problem even the smallest things. That's why I'm always in a mess. Or it is just a jinx destined to be with me forever. Nah. You know, I didn't sleep for one whole night (as in) just to finish our group's video presentation for Rizal. Then, boom. It just don't like to save. That happened at about 5:30 in the morning and I badly need it at 7:30. I was crying to myself despite the fact that I'm puyat. Yes, I was saying "Lord, Lord, why did you do this to me? I did my best." I keep repeating that to myself. Then I just realize, that just don't make sense so I stopped. :) I was also thinking about my finals in Integral Calculus that day and I haven't review anything at all. Wooh. I wanted to scream.

Then I decided to wait for that thing until it save itself, I would not go if I haven't have it. Hours pass, and then at 9:00. My classmate texted me that our Prof hasn't arrived yet. I saw a spark of hope! Wooh. But that crap project, antagal niya masave. I just decided to go to school and continue it another time kasi di naman dumating si Sir eh.

So there, I just arrived- - - wasted. What would you expect a sleep-deprived girl without even successfully finishing her work? Lakas ng loob kong pumasok eh wala pa naman akong nireview kahit na ano. I just said, "What will happen, will happen." Then, that's it. I just slept waiting for our Prof to come instead of reviewing. I just can't help myself.

Then, boom! My exam was a disaster! Wooh. That's it. Wala na kong magagawa.

Then a week passed. You know, I didn't notice our video presentation. And when i'm about to work, nagreformat pala ang Tito ko! Tsk tsk tsk. Huhu. Restart.

I'm starting to think negative about my Calculus and I'm thinking in advance what if I need to retake that in summer. Wooh. I don't think I can bear if I had summer classes again.

You know, small challenges but I really wanna give up. I easily quit. I easily forget all my effort, that gets dumped and I'll just start to think of the problem. I do not easily move on. I realized, ang hirap sa akin kapag nagka problema, magmumukmok na lang ako and hindi na ako gagawa ng solusyon. Magpapagupo nalang ako sa problema. Napaka pessimistic ko pa naman. Parang ayaw ko na once na nagkaproblema. :( Now, I wanna change that attitude. I want to be positive about negative things.

Hope that side improves as time passes. :)

But everything's alright now. :))

Another thing, I hate being so emotional for him. I'm afraid I'm transforming into an emo, weee. There would be times that I would think, I couldn't get happy because of him. I would cry and cry until my eyes can't cry anymore. :(( So sad, I'm not still over it. You know, I don't have the rights to feel and act like this. Because it was just an ALMOST but . . . I can't help myself. Hmm. Enough. I think I should blog about that that some other time. Promise.:)

BTW, Thanks for my friends who always cheers me up. :)) Love you guys. Mwah.

P.S.

What do you think about this???

Nagbibili there means:
a. nagbebenta or
b. bumibili.

For me, I think that was nagbebenta. But for others, its bumibili.
You? What do you think?

just g.

unlucky or not?

2009-03-13T09:46:00.000-07:00

Today's Friday the 13th. So what?

Hmm. Looking back to everything that happened today, i think I'm still lucky (or not?).

I remember, I was running moments before 1pm for I was scared to be late in my examination at Mcdonald's, Sta. Lucia. I was really laughing at myself. I'm the type of person that don't easily remember places. Yes, that's why I run ,run, run. I remember Bella running at Volterra for Edward's life. Hmm. Kinda romantic, huh. How I wish I was running for the same fate, too. Woah. I can still remember Bella's line, "I felt like I was trapped in one of those terrifying nightmares, the one that you have to run until your lungs burst. . . " (Though that were not the exact words.) Then, I was inspired. And thank God, I have reached my point of destination at 12:58. Of course, I gave myself a time to breathe before I entered Mcdo. And that's it.

I don't want to waste time. I want to have a job. I need it so much that I've been running just to reach for it. Wooh, drama.

Life, please be kind to me. My hope stacks were running out.

♥just g.

U-turn

2009-03-07T10:41:00.000-08:00

Sometimes there are some things that we do not want to recall, to remember, to see, to hear, to touch, to feel. Right?

But why do we keep coming back, for a little grand feeling and for more pain?

At the first place, why would we choose to forget those craps if that wouldn't hurt us or make us feel preoccupied? That's it. Why make a U-turn?

Probably, I have an answer. That's because of that tiny spark of hope left wandering in your heart that someday things will be on the right place. Is that reason enough?

No.

Then what should you do?

Accept the reality. Giggle when you blush. Smile when he looks at you. Cry when you need. Love until you bleed. Develop masochism. And let the feeling fade away. Is that it?

Gee. Emo mode this time!

♥just g.

•♥tranvia exp♥•

2009-03-04T06:37:00.000-08:00

What a very tiring day! We had our final video shoot for our group project in Rizal. And by the Lord's mercy, we're done, now our problem is editing.

Being the only girl in the group, I think it would be boring. But I'm wrong. It's like I've experienced being a boy for a day. :)) And it's fun to be with them, though they were all late. Hmp..

I will never forget Wakpi for his promising acting as KC (Concepcion). And imagine, we rode in what they call 'tranvia' which circles Rizal Park. :)) I love the experience, blogsters. ^-^

(Intramuros Tranvia)
But that's not exactly the one that we rode. :))
-next time I will put our picture.

After all, the long walk, the sun bathing experience, and an hour or two of waiting for them to come, was worth it. ^^.

I'm just excited for our presentation.

Thanks to Partner and Wakpi for their special participation. :) Next time, we'll powerhug!!

Goodbye for now, Ka-blog!!!

-.- Zzzzzzzzzzzz...

♥just g.

what a hectic week!

2009-03-02T07:26:00.000-08:00

Today, I just got stressed out after knowing all of the things that I have to finish in just a span of one week! OMG! I've been feeling so sorry for my eyes in advance because I know that that they were going to be overused in the coming days! But I think this is much more reasonable, the fact that vacation will start at March 14, it's woooh! I can imagine, I would be able to wake up with no worries for Calculus etc. (Ows? Wala nga ba? Hmm.), I would be able to complete my 8-hour-sleep ritual (huwow.), and I would be able to wake up without bothering that I'm late. :)

Back to the nerve-cracking things that I need to do. I need to finish our group presentation in Rizal including the written report and the minimum of 5 pages reaction about the political evo of Rizal as our final project. Plus to that, our finals in Eco tomorrow and quiz in Stat. Plus, the labor cost and manpower chuchu and construction diagram in Construction Works. Plus our Prof wants us to conduct a site visit again. My God, my whole week is occupied. Plus, finals in Integ on Monday! ( Even typing that is a little bit stressful.)

I do not have the intention for you to feel stressful too. :)) Haha.

One thing, I'm excited for our swimming! Yeehah!

Hmm. Thank God, inspite of all of those stress-provoking situations, you dropped someone who have the ability to erase them all. (Naks!) When I see him, the badtrip just goes away. Weeh!
Don't thinkof anybody else. That's Enchong Dee! He's so cute in his new Bench Daily Scent commercial, agree?! (Nakakawala sa sarili! Joke!:) )

A picture from Facebook.

(Just can't resist those tantalizing eyes! Whew!)

♥just g.

my first blog... :))

2009-03-01T09:19:00.000-08:00

"ONE LOOK... ONE SMILE... ONE WORD... ONE TOUCH...
ALL OF MY EFFORT TO FORGET GOES DOWN THE DRAIN..."

I can still remember, just exactly a year ago. I decided to forget everything. I made an ultimatum to myself, that I will cut every heartstrings, every connection, everything. [But of course I didn't complied with that. :) ]

I said it's so much for all the hurt, tears, sleepless nights, unenergized days, emo modes, and pages that I have wasted in my diary. I said I have forgiven myself for wallowing in misery. I promised to be stronger and better.

I've set rules. Funny how I tried to obey these things, stopping myself with full force.

RULE NO.1: Never look his way!
- Of course, this was so hard. What if we're on the same way?! :)
RULE NO.2a: Keep your distance with him, 20 meters away! (approximately)
- My God! This one's a lot harder! (I've set 20 meters so that I can adjust it every now and then.. wooh.. )
RULE NO.2b: 5 cm away if we're seatmates!
- To be exact! Do I need a ruler every time I sit beside him?

RULE NO. 3: Continue what you have started!
- What if I don't know how could I ever start?!

Sometimes, I think I'm making a fool out of myself trying to forget someone who used to occupy my mind, who used to conquer my dream, someone who has been a part of me.

Here's a few lyrics of the song Almost (by Tamia) which I relate the most;

"Can you tell me how can one miss what she never had?
How could i reminisce when there is no past?
How could I have memories of being happy with you boy?
Can you tell me how can this be?
How could my mind pull out incidents,
Recall dates and times that never happened,
How could I celebrate a love that's too late,
And how could I really mean the words I'm about to say?

I miss the times that we almost shared,
I miss the love that was almost there,
I miss the times that we used to kiss,
At least in my dreams just let me take my time and reminisce.

I miss the times that we never had,
What happened to us we were almost there,
Whoever said it's impossible to miss, what you never had,
Never almost had you..."

That's it! Now I'm afraid the feeling is coming back... Wooh... Lord please don't....

♥just g.