i can feel it...

Yeah, really. IT's summer time!

I can feel the hot breeze over my face.

Whew!
However, I do not have plans yet. I'm still thinking of creative things to do.


First thing, I would love to swim in a beach. Exciting, huh. But, I do not want to get a free tan. I don't think I need that anymore. :)


Hmm. Share me what your plans are. You can comment me. :)



Thanks.

feels good to be here/random thoughts...

Hey!

What's with the title? Hmm. I just feel good about this blogging thing. It's cool, you meet new and interesting people, make friends with them, share your stories and whatevers with them.I can express myself here, share what I'm feeling, then get advice and help from people I just knew. I also enjoy reading other posts and what's good is that I'm enjoying. :)

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Speaking of enjoyment, I also enjoy doing estimates for houses in our Construction Works subject. But, I think it's over that until now we're still doing that because supposedly it's summer vacation. Hmm. I wish I could finish it early so that I can relax. Hmm. ^^,

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While watching TV Patrol World last night, I was so - (feeling unexplainable) about the condom testing thing! I'm against it! For me, they don't need to do that. A certain company is searching for qualified applicants in those 500 people that piled for that thing. And there's a prize for the best condom tester, that is Php 50, 000. I think they don't need to publicize those things and show money prizes for people. Because they are not preventing and lessening the sex thing to happen, they are just urging and encouraging people to do that. Even they say it would be safe, statistics say that is not really safe. There were some unexpected cases that happen. I also think that is not a good and healthy for youths. As we know, youths were mapupusok, they would be encourage to do those thing instead of avoiding pre-marital sex, because they would think it's safe nga. My point is, kung gusto nga nilang magkaroon ng testing thingy, eh di do it privately and what's the use of the best tester? How was that? Catholic Church nga din against sa mga ganun diba? Hai. Ang world talaga ngayon, masyado nang exposed sa kung anu-ano. This is just my opinion, if you think it's being old-fashioned then that's ok. Let me here you, it's a moot point naman, open to discussion. :)

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I'm excited! Tomorrow, we are going to have a family date! Wooh. I'm just excited.

hugs and kisses..,

just g.

"Peter"

As me and my friend were working on our Construction Works activity, one of our friends send this video. You know, I stopped working and look. After a few minutes I was crying. :(

C'mon watch this.





Even we denied Him numerous times, we commit mistakes and we turn away from Him, He was still there no matter what.


Hope you are blessed. :)

geleen speaks...

Woah... I missed to blog. :( BTW, I'm back. :)

These past few days I was really busy. How I wish to get rid of this eyebags. Hmm.

Napakaproblemado kong tao. I problem even the smallest things. That's why I'm always in a mess. Or it is just a jinx destined to be with me forever. Nah. You know, I didn't sleep for one whole night (as in) just to finish our group's video presentation for Rizal. Then, boom. It just don't like to save. That happened at about 5:30 in the morning and I badly need it at 7:30. I was crying to myself despite the fact that I'm puyat. Yes, I was saying "Lord, Lord, why did you do this to me? I did my best." I keep repeating that to myself. Then I just realize, that just don't make sense so I stopped. :) I was also thinking about my finals in Integral Calculus that day and I haven't review anything at all. Wooh. I wanted to scream.

Then I decided to wait for that thing until it save itself, I would not go if I haven't have it. Hours pass, and then at 9:00. My classmate texted me that our Prof hasn't arrived yet. I saw a spark of hope! Wooh. But that crap project, antagal niya masave. I just decided to go to school and continue it another time kasi di naman dumating si Sir eh.

So there, I just arrived- - - wasted. What would you expect a sleep-deprived girl without even successfully finishing her work? Lakas ng loob kong pumasok eh wala pa naman akong nireview kahit na ano. I just said, "What will happen, will happen." Then, that's it. I just slept waiting for our Prof to come instead of reviewing. I just can't help myself.

Then, boom! My exam was a disaster! Wooh. That's it. Wala na kong magagawa.

Then a week passed. You know, I didn't notice our video presentation. And when i'm about to work, nagreformat pala ang Tito ko! Tsk tsk tsk. Huhu. Restart.

I'm starting to think negative about my Calculus and I'm thinking in advance what if I need to retake that in summer. Wooh. I don't think I can bear if I had summer classes again.

You know, small challenges but I really wanna give up. I easily quit. I easily forget all my effort, that gets dumped and I'll just start to think of the problem. I do not easily move on. I realized, ang hirap sa akin kapag nagka problema, magmumukmok na lang ako and hindi na ako gagawa ng solusyon. Magpapagupo nalang ako sa problema. Napaka pessimistic ko pa naman. Parang ayaw ko na once na nagkaproblema. :( Now, I wanna change that attitude. I want to be positive about negative things.

Hope that side improves as time passes. :)

But everything's alright now. :))

Another thing, I hate being so emotional for him. I'm afraid I'm transforming into an emo, weee. There would be times that I would think, I couldn't get happy because of him. I would cry and cry until my eyes can't cry anymore. :(( So sad, I'm not still over it. You know, I don't have the rights to feel and act like this. Because it was just an ALMOST but . . . I can't help myself. Hmm. Enough. I think I should blog about that that some other time. Promise.:)

BTW, Thanks for my friends who always cheers me up. :)) Love you guys. Mwah.

P.S.

What do you think about this???

Nagbibili there means:
a. nagbebenta or
b. bumibili.

For me, I think that was nagbebenta. But for others, its bumibili.
You? What do you think?

just g.

unlucky or not?

Today's Friday the 13th. So what?

Hmm. Looking back to everything that happened today, i think I'm still lucky (or not?).

I remember, I was running moments before 1pm for I was scared to be late in my examination at Mcdonald's, Sta. Lucia. I was really laughing at myself. I'm the type of person that don't easily remember places. Yes, that's why I run ,run, run. I remember Bella running at Volterra for Edward's life. Hmm. Kinda romantic, huh. How I wish I was running for the same fate, too. Woah. I can still remember Bella's line, "I felt like I was trapped in one of those terrifying nightmares, the one that you have to run until your lungs burst. . . " (Though that were not the exact words.) Then, I was inspired. And thank God, I have reached my point of destination at 12:58. Of course, I gave myself a time to breathe before I entered Mcdo. And that's it.

I don't want to waste time. I want to have a job. I need it so much that I've been running just to reach for it. Wooh, drama.

Life, please be kind to me. My hope stacks were running out.

♥just g.

U-turn

Sometimes there are some things that we do not want to recall, to remember, to see, to hear, to touch, to feel. Right?

But why do we keep coming back, for a little grand feeling and for more pain?

At the first place, why would we choose to forget those craps if that wouldn't hurt us or make us feel preoccupied? That's it. Why make a U-turn?

Probably, I have an answer. That's because of that tiny spark of hope left wandering in your heart that someday things will be on the right place. Is that reason enough?

No.

Then what should you do?

Accept the reality. Giggle when you blush. Smile when he looks at you. Cry when you need. Love until you bleed. Develop masochism. And let the feeling fade away. Is that it?




Gee. Emo mode this time!

♥just g.

•♥tranvia exp♥•

What a very tiring day! We had our final video shoot for our group project in Rizal. And by the Lord's mercy, we're done, now our problem is editing.

Being the only girl in the group, I think it would be boring. But I'm wrong. It's like I've experienced being a boy for a day. :)) And it's fun to be with them, though they were all late. Hmp..

I will never forget Wakpi for his promising acting as KC (Concepcion). And imagine, we rode in what they call 'tranvia' which circles Rizal Park. :)) I love the experience, blogsters. ^-^

(Intramuros Tranvia)
But that's not exactly the one that we rode. :))
-next time I will put our picture.

After all, the long walk, the sun bathing experience, and an hour or two of waiting for them to come, was worth it. ^^.

I'm just excited for our presentation.

Thanks to Partner and Wakpi for their special participation. :) Next time, we'll powerhug!!

Goodbye for now, Ka-blog!!!


-.- Zzzzzzzzzzzz...

♥just g.

what a hectic week!

Today, I just got stressed out after knowing all of the things that I have to finish in just a span of one week! OMG! I've been feeling so sorry for my eyes in advance because I know that that they were going to be overused in the coming days! But I think this is much more reasonable, the fact that vacation will start at March 14, it's woooh! I can imagine, I would be able to wake up with no worries for Calculus etc. (Ows? Wala nga ba? Hmm.), I would be able to complete my 8-hour-sleep ritual (huwow.), and I would be able to wake up without bothering that I'm late. :)

Back to the nerve-cracking things that I need to do. I need to finish our group presentation in Rizal including the written report and the minimum of 5 pages reaction about the political evo of Rizal as our final project. Plus to that, our finals in Eco tomorrow and quiz in Stat. Plus, the labor cost and manpower chuchu and construction diagram in Construction Works. Plus our Prof wants us to conduct a site visit again. My God, my whole week is occupied. Plus, finals in Integ on Monday! ( Even typing that is a little bit stressful.)

I do not have the intention for you to feel stressful too. :)) Haha.

One thing, I'm excited for our swimming! Yeehah!

Hmm. Thank God, inspite of all of those stress-provoking situations, you dropped someone who have the ability to erase them all. (Naks!) When I see him, the badtrip just goes away. Weeh!
Don't thinkof anybody else. That's Enchong Dee! He's so cute in his new Bench Daily Scent commercial, agree?! (Nakakawala sa sarili! Joke!:) )

A picture from Facebook.

(Just can't resist those tantalizing eyes! Whew!)

♥just g.

my first blog... :))

"ONE LOOK... ONE SMILE... ONE WORD... ONE TOUCH...
ALL OF MY EFFORT TO FORGET GOES DOWN THE DRAIN..."


I can still remember, just exactly a year ago. I decided to forget everything. I made an ultimatum to myself, that I will cut every heartstrings, every connection, everything. [But of course I didn't complied with that. :) ]

I said it's so much for all the hurt, tears, sleepless nights, unenergized days, emo modes, and pages that I have wasted in my diary. I said I have forgiven myself for wallowing in misery. I promised to be stronger and better.

I've set rules. Funny how I tried to obey these things, stopping myself with full force.

RULE NO.1: Never look his way!
- Of course, this was so hard. What if we're on the same way?! :)
RULE NO.2a: Keep your distance with him, 20 meters away! (approximately)
- My God! This one's a lot harder! (I've set 20 meters so that I can adjust it every now and then.. wooh.. )
RULE NO.2b: 5 cm away if we're seatmates!
- To be exact! Do I need a ruler every time I sit beside him?

RULE NO. 3: Continue what you have started!
- What if I don't know how could I ever start?!

Sometimes, I think I'm making a fool out of myself trying to forget someone who used to occupy my mind, who used to conquer my dream, someone who has been a part of me.

Here's a few lyrics of the song Almost (by Tamia) which I relate the most;

"Can you tell me how can one miss what she never had?
How could i reminisce when there is no past?
How could I have memories of being happy with you boy?
Can you tell me how can this be?
How could my mind pull out incidents,
Recall dates and times that never happened,
How could I celebrate a love that's too late,
And how could I really mean the words I'm about to say?

I miss the times that we almost shared,
I miss the love that was almost there,
I miss the times that we used to kiss,
At least in my dreams just let me take my time and reminisce.

I miss the times that we never had,
What happened to us we were almost there,
Whoever said it's impossible to miss, what you never had,
Never almost had you..."

That's it! Now I'm afraid the feeling is coming back... Wooh... Lord please don't....

♥just g.